the only way is up

so yeah, nothing much new as far as the Prozac adventure goes.  I have such a dry mouth but hey, I also have running water in my house so all good!

Still not eating as much and when I do stuff my face I feel quite queasy afterwards, yuk!  So I have been eating slower so I am more aware of when enough is enough.  Been getting a few headaches too but noticed I am clenching my teeth a lot so no wonder my head hurts.  The doc did say that I might feel more stressed for a few weeks til the pills kick in.  Back at docs tomorrow so will keep him up to date of everything.

I just feel so much better now that I've done something about it

Will update on what the doc says after appointment tomorrow.

Hugs
Jill
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You remember that horrific headache I had at the weekend that I thought was either to do with having a cold or a prozac side effect?  Well, there I was chatting to Wendy on MSN tonight, discussing the calming effects of camomile tea (oh yes, its that good being us!), and my substitution of diet rin bru for red wine when suddenly I realised why my headache was so awful.  I reckon it was the caffeine withdrawal kicking in, it hadn't even occurred to me before!  I totally cut out alcohol and caffeine the day I started taking Prozac so yeah of course I will feel the effects of that.  Durrrrrrr......

However, the dry mouth and lack of appetite is still around which is fine.  Eating less and drinking more water is exactly what I need!

Went to Dundee today, signed all the forms and stuff with the solicitor then went for a coffee(well, a peppermint tea actually for me) with my mum then back home again.  got loads of studying done on the bus which made me feel really good.

Felt like I could have gone either way today but Alister didnt test me so it all went fine.

hugs and high fives to all!
Jill
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well, as far as side effects go anyway.  The headache from hell that I had yesterday was hanging around in the background but nothing too bad today.  Still got a really dry mouth and eating much less but hey i'm all for silver linings! 

Alister had a huge tantrum today, including trashing pretty much every room as well as sinking his nails into my wrist. Lovely.  I ignored it all instead of flying into the angry rage I usually do.  I know it will take time for my new founcd calmness to seep through to him but it will eventually.  I hope..... Fact is he is behaving the way I used to before I got help, I just have to re-educate him now but it won't be easy.

Anyway, we ended up having a lovely afternoon together so all is well that ends well.  He read me 2 stories tonight at bedtime, his reading is really coming on.  I was so proud listening to him sounding out every word and figuring it all out

Off to Dundee tomorrow, 1 1/2 hours each way on the bus in perfect peace!  iPod on, get some studying done - can't wait!

Night All,

Jill
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So 4 days into my first Prozac prescription and I'm, as the title would suggest quite glaringly, feeling a bit iffy!

Not sure if it's down to the pretty horrible cold that I've had for the past few days or if it's the prozac kicking in but I have a rotten headache most of the time just now and am starting to feel a bit queasy and don't have much of an appetite. All of them are recognised side effects of prozac but since I started them at the same time as i got hit with this cold then i really dont know what it's down to.

Anyway, for now I am going to go and have a peppermint tea and a couple of paracetemol.

And maybe a wee snooze on the sofa

Tonight is pizza night, hopefully the smell of it wil make me feel hungry!

Ta-ra for now!

Jill

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so here I am at day 1.  It took me ages of skirting round the box of pills and the glass of water this morning but I finally popped a little green and yellow capsule out and washed it down.  Then had a bit of a laugh at what a palava I had turned it into! 

I didn't expect to feel any different today.  And I didnt.  Except I am choked with the cold and feeling lousy.  Boo hoo!  I've made such a song and dance about it today that it must be Man Flu I have.  My throat is agony, really hope I dont get tonsillitis again.

I had a really UP day today.  Not crazy hyper Up, just not down.  Alister tried his luck a couple of times but I managed to work some PPP voodoo on him and averted a nasty tantrum.  My boss has been teaching me some NLP techniques to try with him too and he quite likes doing them. 

So there we go, Day 1 down.  Feeling very positive about the future.

Massive thanks to everyone who left comments yesterday or who have been in touch.  I honestly didnt direct you all here to extract nice words from you all but thanks a million all the same!!

High Fives!

Jill

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As a bit of an aside to Mrs Badcrumble's Diary, this blog will track the progress that I make on fluoxetine, Prozac to you and me.

My moods have been up and down over the past few years but recently it's been very much more down.  Today I went to the doctor and was very glad it was one of the docs who has been there for years and I am very comfortable talking to him.  He let me sit and talk for a good ten minutes.  I explained that last time this happened I knew it was all about poor self esteem and guilt about being a shit parent and i had let it all fester until I just couldnt face each day.  This time round, following a course of psychology a couple of years ago, I know its not about that.  This time I just feel like my moods are all over the shop. 

I can't deal with Alister when he challenges my authority - I just cry.  The longer this is going on the more he is pushing his boundaries and the harder it is for me to deal with him.  So he's getting more and more out of control and I'm crying all the time - not healthy for either of us.  My night time eating has started again which makes me miserable.  I'm about 60% up and 40% down just now so I told the doc I want to slam the brakes on now before I end up in a big black hole again.

He agreed I seem pretty well balanced and it's not a case for psychology but prescribed the minimum dose of Prozac.  I have to go back in a couple of weeks for him to see if I am having any side effects. 

I feel really proud of myself for sorting this out early and for being able to recognise that I need some help.  I'm starting the pills tomorrow so am having a few glasses of wine tonight cos I dont want to touch alcohol whilst i'm on the medication.

And I watched a silly girly film about snogging and blokes and stuff only that got me all sad that I dont have a snog buddy in my life. Although to be honest I would settle for a hug. So if you see me and I look sad, do me a favour and give us a hug will ya???

So the journey starts tomorrow.  I couldnt find much online about the actual effects of Prozac - just lots of "waaah its evil" or "waaaah its amazing" so if nothing else I hope this will give potential Prozaccers the inside info they need.

Fingers crossed.  Dont forget those hugs now.....

Jill xxxxx